Listening to: pronobozo - Coming Back
Honestly, I didn't think I'd be using this ol' dA of mine again. I mean, given the insanity (good and bad, mostly bad) that I've gone through the past few years, the lack of a real and sustainable artistic drive, and the good portion of things I had submitted being more related toward the situation at hand at the time, I'd have laughed if I had told myself then that I'd come back and use this in a more "positive manner". Sure, I had been lurking heavily these last few months (maybe even years), only keeping up with all the artists I follow on here still, but any productivity just seemed like an afterthought.
Here I am, breaking my (proverbial) silence, feeling right ready to crank out the artistry again. My mind's in a COMPLETELY different place than it has been in the past few years. How different? Well, I can't remember off the top of my head who all actually knows what had happened, but I had come as close as you can to have committed suicide back in 2008 (if memory serves). I had basically given up on everything, hated everything, and most certainly hated myself. How thankful I am to have had the friends I had then, as they were able to get me through that darkest period of my life along with give me enough clarity to seek help and get my life straightened out. Since then, things have definitely gotten better and my life is looking up. That's how different I am.
Because of this difference, I've gone and cleared out all my old journals. Not all of it was depressing, granted, but it felt necessitated. I've also thrown a good chunk of my older work into storage (either as a step toward moving on from the past or to put the pieces of art that I feel aren't up to the quality of art I'd like to hold myself to today). Whether or not I submit anything in this last month of 2013, I couldn't say. But I'm definitely hoping to get a good amount of writing posted on here. Maybe I'll even get back into the photography thing again (though I'd also like to get a camera that would facilitate the need for higher quality art).
Here's hoping for a prosperous end to 2013, and an even more prosperous 2014.